Monday, April 10, 2006
its been the third time. will i die? yes.
i've failed my chinese ca for the third time. 3 papers in a row. all failed.
first time: 35+5 (liu liu added 5 marks for everybody)
second time: 41 (improved. that's good)
third time: 40 (shit.)
great. i didn't read the storybook and now i got 40 marks. and the story is a 'funny' one, so how am i supposed to find a propriate ans?
i got 2/12 for the storybook.
i gotta admit i didn't try my best. i studied the very day b4 the test. oh god.
usually liu liu's paper (the one she set), has tons and tons of tian xie han zi. and for the 2nd paper (which was the one she set), i didn't study gou ci... so i died.
Now i thought will have tian xie han zi, knowing that i am super damn idioting lousy at it, i studied the gou ci and the writing of the words for the WHOLE day.
IN THE END? 8 BLOODY QUESTIONS CAME OUT. WHY? BCOS IT WASNT LIU LIU WHO SET THE PAPER.
usually there would be abt 15 questions. dammit.
and the rest of the sections are where i lose all of my marks...
great. my parents will usually say 'its alright, next time try harder'. now my dad will nag at me, sometimes getting a little too out of control.. he will go 'this is bad! we better find u a tuition teacher. u should have started from last year. u must work hard. Try not to go online or use ur computer' (p.s. this wasn't said in a friendly tone....)
then i just told my mum abt my marks and she kept quiet at first.. then she said 'see first. this wednesday u having tuition, then we see what will happen' oh yah. my mum found me a chinese tuition tcher. FINALLY.
liu liu? when she was giving out e papers, she said to me ' huiting, u this time didn't do well.' ok. she's disappointed. great. my dad, mum and tcher is disappointed.
i mean, doesn't she see me work so damn hard during her lessons. she say we must write the meanings of the gou ci that we do not know. so during her lesson, since i do not know so many words. i spend my time writing down the meanings and i dont even know what e bloody hell she is talkin abt.
i try my best to listen to whatever she is saying. but, oh well, as u know, she mumbles all e way. sometimes i want to tell her to talk louder. but when i want to, she suddenly can talk soft enough for me to hear. then when i think : ok. i can hear le. then she starts to mumble again..
'this is the way i teach. i must finish all the chapters. u are of no rights to tell me what to do. it is very rude. children nowadays are so rude. yadda yadda yadda............ TIME is very precious. i treasure time a lot. if ur dont, i do. yadda yadda yadda. AH xxx, KEEP QUIET. LISTEN TO ME. u are dont brought up properly. ur dont even know simple manners. yadda yadda yadda. ur must be honest! yadda yadda yadda. some of ur chinese no good, still so lazy.' - miss low.
SHE IS NOT WORTH BEING A TEACHER. great. the onli thing i like abt her is that she helped me once, and she marks really fast. her teaching skills?
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ok. tml there's band. can't wait. its gonna be time to sleep soon. can't wait too.
i can't wait to sleep and wake up with a blank mind.
i haven't told my dad my marks.
once while my dad was kinda lecturing me.. after i had taken the 3rd paper, i told him, that the storybook. i tried reading. i read like 1/12 of the book and i put it down.
why? bcos i dont understand a thing. i dont even know what the hell they are talking abt. then my dad suddenly said strictly,' what? u dont know how to read? u dont understand? that is very serious. must quickly find u a tuition teacher.if u say u can't understand, means ur vocab isn't good.'
then i just kept quiet. duh. he was being super strict. not what i've usually gone through all my years.
he asked me to use a dictionary to find for meanings when i read a book. omg. i'd take forever this way. and the dictionaries at home are gigantic. i think i'd be able to get muscles if i used it often.
now i try my best to find the meanings of the books i read. but.. i look at chinese-english dics..
always a twemasekian `9:29:00 pm
